'I may end up with him again', she told me.

'What more can I ask for? He is a doctor, he is buying a condo unit for us..he is willing to spend on ME.'

'My dreams are like his dreams... he is working hard every single minute just to make sure that they come true.

'But you DON'T LOVE him' I reminded her quietly.

She tilted her head, gave a quick thought and responded:'What more can I ask for in a guy? In a guy that 'high standard' some more.'

I suppose everyone has a different outlook on LOVE.

Some people prefer the 'barter system' which goes ' you give some, I give some, that's fair,'
Some people choose being vacuum cleaner, trying to sip out every little advantages they can get from the men,
Some people are dreamers, believing that love conquers everything.
Some people stick to their own partners not because of affection, but the fear of experiencing changes/ new partners/not able to meet better ones.

To me, I still think LOVE is important in a long lasting relationship.

Yes, I am not silly enough to think that love can solve everything, but I think it's the BASIC / FOUNDATIOIN of a strong relationship.

Holding on to love between the two of us is tremendously helpful in enduring hardship of calamities in life.

I believe if the love exists in a couple, you won't see the man getting dump after he could not afford to give his all to his woman anymore. .


In her case, I think it's not fair for the other party to be 'loved' just because he can afford the things that she wants. If I was the guy, I would be totally devastated. After trying so hard to make her happy solely because of love, she sticks by my side just because I can fulfill her needs, not because of she loves me. :/ What if one day a better man appears in her life, is she going to say SAYONARA?!

Having said that, maybe I am just a dreamer. Maybe I need to meet more jerks in my life to understand the reasons most women go for getting their needs fulfilled rather than loving their partners. To me, I always believe that I should go and work for what I want ( eg. $$, just go and work for it instead of sitting at home waiting to be paid by husband). Nevertheless, having a rich husband is satisfying and delightful still :).


She gave me an anology about love which I find interesting:

Choosing a partner is just like being in the market.

Everyone has something to sell.

It's only when both parties are satisfied and happy of each other's products will they get together.

Tee Hee~


What's your selling point?

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 5:50 AM

I sat up from bed.


2.35Am.

Shit.This is not good.

The couple next-door is fighting. I could hear the crying of that woman 2 blocks across the street.

Sigh.

First day of work...sucks.

I hate being alone, especially being the only one THAT junior.

Everything seems so new, and I am freaking slow.

I watched the clock as it keeps tickling.

Every one second less signifies the lost of another second in my life.

I thought about my life, the past, present and future.

For some reasons, I have missed out something. Something NOT negligible in life.

But.. I can't figure what it is.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 11:42 AM

Tomorrow is THE-DAY, the day Cici Loo is back to the work field, new environment, new colleagues, new system...after 2 months of blissful break.

Honestly, I am kinda nervous. It's not like returning to the workforce doing the same old thing that I have been doing for the past 12 months. It's time for my brain to behave like a sponge, absorbing new information as quickly as it can afford to be ( just that mine starts to saturate already....)

HM kindly brought me out today to Esplanade. I know I know, I have been here for the last 12 months and I never been to this tourist spot at all. C'mon, you don't have the heart to act like a tourist when all you care is going home to have a good sleep after a day of hectic work. Get what I mean?

Random shots. I think it's time to invest on a really GOOD camera... something like Nikon++ My iphone photos can't live up to the standard ...






Some building near Esplanade
I don't know what she is thinking..
They look like dancing robots, waving their arms...'Nananana...getting cheeky with itttt!'

Self explanatory
Tee Hee~
Furlerton hotel

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 8:35 AM

Back to reality.


New crib,


New Hospital.

New rank ( slightly up in the hierarchy, thus bigger pay check but more responsibilities)




See that little room up there? It's DA GYM.

Do you think I will make it there every night?

I certainly hope so.

At least..I should just keep swimming.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 8:51 AM

Ah Beng's Joke

Ah Beng bought a new mobile.
He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said,
'My Mobile No. Has changed. Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610'

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Ah Beng : I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College .
Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No, he is not studying, they are Studying him.

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Ah Beng : Doctor, in my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng : Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.

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Ah Beng : If I die, will you remarry?
Wife: No! I'll stay with my sister. But if I die will you remarry?
Ah Beng : No, I'll also stay with your sister.

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Ah Beng : People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng : When I went to the Park today, everybody said, 'Oh GOD! U have come again.'

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Ah Beng complained to the police:
Ah Beng: Sir, all items are missing, except the TV in my house.
Police: How the thief did not take TV?
Ah Beng : I was watching TV news

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Ah Beng comes back to his car & find a note saying 'Parking Fine'. He writes a note and sticks it to a pole 'Thanks for complement.'

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How do you recognize Ah Beng in School? He is the one who erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases the board.

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Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and not on other. So the man asked him why he did so. He replied that, "The weather forecast announced that on one hand it would be cold and on the other hand it would be hot."

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Ah Beng in a bar and his cellular phone rings. He picks it up and says, "Hello, how did you know I was here?"

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Ah Beng : Why are all these people running?
Man: This is a race, the winner will get the cup
Ah Beng: If only the winner will get the cup, why others running?

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Teacher: 'I killed a person' convert this sentence into future tense
Ah Beng : The future tense is ' You will go to jail'

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Ah Beng told his servant: Go and water the plants!
Servant: It's already raining.
Ah Beng : So what? Take an umbrella and go.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 3:14 AM

I am super excited!!!! *SHRIEKS*

I know..it's JUST KL, but having trapped in this little town with a very 'busy' Sunshine, I can't wait for my short trip! How I miss the time when I happily grabbed a few spanking cool tops and queued up with the other shopaholic crowd for payment. ( I know, Rebecca Bloomwood is my soulmate).

On a more serious note, I think I really need to study ( how many *** times have I said that?!) It's NOT cool to be a medical officer. I couldn't just do the 'no brainers' stuffs and left all the thinking to the MOs like all the housemen do in Sg anymore. Sigh, I hope I have a hypertrophied brain but now it seems more like 'atrophic' to me.
Ok, let me have a solemn vow:

I WILL NOT SHOP FOR A MONTH IF I DO NOT STUDY HARD FROM TODAY ONWARDS.

Hmm..Hope this works.

Maybe something more hard core:

I WILL NOT KISS SUNSHINE FOR A MONTH IF I DO NOT STUDY HARD TODAY (Sorry love, it's not your fault)

Hmm..OK! DEAL!

Off I go..to..study.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 7:06 PM

I have sold my conscience for it.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 12:10 AM

It is very difficult to have genuine friends, even harder to keep them. Not that they left but they change.

When she was single,we were happier. She would treat me earnestly, as I..was her best friend. The time, the effort are spent to keep the friendship growing.

However, having a boyfriend totally turns her world upside down.
She does not bother to spend anytime with you, very stingy in giving (but keeps taking) and even our conversations are dull.

It's like, all her priorities change. Obviously, I am not at the top of the list.

I remembered texting her one day wishing her well, and she was like: Anything wrong?
Yeah, it's freaking wrong to just say HI?

One unpleasant incident after another, I finally called it quit. . Exactly just like another close person of hers does. We have had enough.

I stop giving. I stop trying to keep in touch. We have known each other for so long, yet she is losing interest in having quality friendships. Maybe her love is the most important thing for her right now, maybe it is too difficult to keep a boyfriend and a good friend at the same time.

Sometimes I wonder should I tell her the truth, should I let her know that her attitude is pushing people away. She shoud just stop taking but learn to give. Stop being stingy. Stop being rude , just stop being...difficult.

Knowing her for so long, I know that I will be astrocized.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 6:53 PM

Once upon a time, an ancient friend of mine advised me that: If you are out hunting a gift for a friend, set your budget and bring the exact amount of money with you, no more , no less.

I guess it's true. Went to MAC today aiming for something pleasant for MM 's coming birthday.
I ended up spending an extra RM 93 for myself. *MMmpHM*


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Once upon a time, I complained to my father that my sister was hopelessly addicted to make ups..and naturally, she was burning his cash relentlessly. I proudly declared that I would never, never ever spent too much on this. 'Furthermore, natural is beauty' as I added.

Father turned to me with a mysterious smile: Never said never.

Now, I am officially the queen of makeup in Stampin.

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Once upon a time, he told me that I should never try to lose weight as my butt is the only asset that I got ( WTF),
I lost mine in a few years ago in jogging and never got it back.

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Once upon a time, I told him that I would never date anyone in my profession as it will make us a very dull couple.

I ate my words, one by one.

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There are more 'Once Upon A Time' but then as I go on, shame and guilt hit me and I decided not to go on any further.

Some of the things are better off left untold.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 2:09 AM

Getting a bit down tonight.

Must be the long afternoon nap that I was not supposed to be taking, thanks to Sunshine for letting that happened. ( He must have plotted this and spite my drink)

I think he did that on purpose so that he could have a piece of mind when studying, minus a freaking mad gf that keep sighing and 'cry mother cry father' for not knowing what to do ( and of course, refusing to study). :/

Sometimes I hope I am a superstar or something so that all I care is about my looks, my body and all those superficial shallow stuffs. But sometimes I hope I am a movie director, I can direct a Block buster movie the way I want, pick the actors I love, write the plot I wish. But wait, sometimes I just want to be a Tai Tai.

I remembered way back in medical school , I was having lunch with a group of aspiring doctors-wanna be. Nine out of ten of them were inspired to be great successful doctors since the age of less than ten. When it was my turn to reveal my dream of the century, I was quite hesistant. C'mon, I just could not tell them my dream was to become an air stewardness alright? HOW ASPIRING.
Anyway, I was honest afterall. There was an awkard silence across the table. I bet they were thinking why the hell did the Medical School allowed such a bimbo crawled through the gate.
*mmph* I wonder why.

Been blog hopping lately. It always amused me when I came across this remark:

I don't write much about my inner thoughts anymore in my own blog.
I felt like I have no privacy at all.
I think I should stop blogging...
I am so sad.


Geez Your Highness, it's your option to publicize (and sometimes promote) your own freaking blog and now you are sulking about lack of privacy?!!
You can always switch your blog into a protected one.
I suppose this is a battle between privacy and the lust to become the 'top blogger' or whatever.


This weekend is going to be a great one because my ji muis are back. YAY!

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 5:59 AM

Been and back from Sibu.

Dusty old little town.

Sunshine brought me to Cafe Cafe, which is apparently, the hottest cafe alive in this town.

The food was pretty good, but Sunshine attracted too many gays' attention, and that also happened during our night in The Queen's. What a gay magnect :/

It's funny how they stared at the 'prey' , conveniently ignoring the pretty girlfriend next to him ( I would like to believe), almost dripping with saliva. C'mon!! *Groans* The thing is I could not shoot daggers at them ( it works only between the women btw), and since they are another totally different species ....I just don't know how to.

Baby Scarlet can talk now ( yeah, like pronouncing objects and people instead of just making noises)... She yells Aci Aci everytime she sees me....VERY POLITE INDEED. ( Where is the yi yi or auntie? No respect...)


Back to shopping...

Hello Kitty limited eye shadows palatte is a total failure (althought I must give some credits to the packaging). Not pigmented at all. I almost rubbed a layer of skin off my eye lids to get the colours to show despite putting on my best primer....
Tsk tsk tsk...
RM 150 gone...just like that...



My next mission is to grab Giorgio Armani Silky Foundation which I can't find in Sg or Kch. Let's hope it is availabe in KL.



GEISHA
BYE

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 7:57 AM

I miss Raintree.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 8:57 AM

OOpss, I did it again.

I thought I promised myself not to treat AirAsia planes like taxis?

I flew back for 2 days.

Co-incidentally it was my father's birthday.

So going back would be the perfect excuse...and it fitted in very nicely.







I, Cici Loo, will be spending money wisely from now onwards. Amen.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 8:36 AM

Every month I will have several eczema attacks, especially if I stay up late or doing 36-hour calls ( surprise surprise).

My breakouts just drive me nuts!!!! I can't stop scratching and sulking..seriously, I am super grumpy. I will storm over whoever who gets in my way and snapped at the most minute thing..... I think I am more of a descent girl during my PMS period than this!!!


URGH!!!!!!!!!!!


ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*SCRATCH SCRATCH*

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 9:08 AM

I am BACK...Just because I have 2 months of freaking holidays!!!!!!!!

My Prof told me I won't have 2 months break anymore in my entire short life unless I am fired.

Hmm...Good thought.T

I decided that blogger.com is still my favourite blogspot after all! Livejournal is O-K, but I guess I am stupid enough not knowing how to maximize my photos and get unreasonably pissed off with Livejournal.

Anyway now that I have too much time to kill, I shall start blogging about my pathetic ways of life, the little and big things of the surroudings and perhaps my love life when I am kind enough. Ha-Ha.


I am into my second week of holidays.

The first week was a blast~ *wink* ..minus all the cash I have conveniently burnt of course :/
It is not wise to stay in Sg if you are not working. You will end up shop shop shop till your bank account alarm siren goes off, like mine for instance.
The return tickets back to kch is dirt cheap, like S50 RETURN..honestly it's just like a return cab fare from my hospital to home. I am holding back the LUST to fly back for a merely 3 days trip before Syl's visit to Sg this coming Friday. It is...indeed...hard...to...suppress...or control... *BURRPPP*~

Talking about lust... I am into KATE SPADE handbags nowadays... Look:











Freaking ORGASMIC right??? I am so going to get them...you see...when Sunshine gives me a node.

Some weekend pics:

Dolphin's meat (top)

Taste very..chewwyyyy

My Japanese hot pot something something



Vivo city .. Good place to chill...





There were kids , no, adults playing with the water like it's a pool or something.

My favourite katak photo, stolen from The National Geography Museum *Shhh..*


Ciao~ Will be back.

Miss you.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 2:52 AM

I miss the good old days...

That I can always ask $$$ from daddy when I was broke,

That I can always run across the road to look for J when I was stressed,

That I can always ask my eating partner Ice out for food hunting when I felt like it,

That I can always call DY up for random chats when I was bored,

That I think that NZ100 for a top was way too expensive,

That I am allowed to believe that LOVE conquers everything.

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 12:44 AM

Bumped into my old blog and came across lots of nostalgic old pics worth almost 3 years old.

Glad to find them as I thought they have perished along with my old laptop.

I was so happy and chubby. MUAHAHA
p/s: Don't ask me what the hell with the red streaks. I don't know.


Let's start off with a KISS.

Jo, Me, Ice baby
FOO RONG and Me
Pleasant surprise for Jo
LoLo and I
Christchurch colleagues
Health Sciences friends
My 'tu di' and me
William and I
KW
Peggy

Helen and Petty
Will's wedding


DY
JOY
Early birthday
Great dinner

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* Dreaming is like lollies to the souls_ 11:33 PM