I am 22.

By the end of the year, I will be a year older.

People like my age are talking about graduation plans, working plans, and possibly settling down and GETTING MARRIED.

A friend of mine is going to tie the knot in June.

Honestly, I am S-C-A-R-E-D.

I am still living in my own world of fantasy, denying the fact that I should dutifully think like an adult, a GROWN UP.

I should be R-E-S-P-O-N-S-I-B-L-E to my CAREER, my RELATIONSHIPS and MYSELF, and most importantly to GOD.

No more procrastinations in doing my work.

No more summer/ winter flings.

No more splurging and wasting money senselessly,

No more empty promises to God,

No more NONSENSES in my life.

A good mate of mine asked when my BIG DAY will be.

I naturally assume that she is referring to my GRADUATION DAY.

'I am talking about your wedding day, silly.'

*Rolled my eyes* DoohhH! Obviously I am thinking more of my graduation time which is more feasible and realistic.

I was ANNOYED by that. That's OFFENSIVE, you know.

I hate the conventional way when you graduate, start working and within a year you get married. That's the norms, nothing much to expect when you graduate except for getting married and making babies.

GEEZ...NO!!!

I can't see my life ends just there.

I want to work.I want to see the world outside, I want to conquer the world!!! *Slap!* I mean.. I want to taste the hectic working life and beat those alpha males up to prove that we women can do better than them!!!! *Kick ass*

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Koko's silly face flashes across my mind.

Oh, that's the kind of women he dreaded most------- egoistic manly women.

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Ha-ha. I am NOT THAT BAD.

Personally I still think men are stronger than women. I expect my partner to be smarter than me, and is able to take in charge at times of need (although he will have a tough time trying to do this). I oblige to people I respect, people I adore.

That's the problem I have. I tend to be tolerant and nice only to people I like.

This morning one of the nurse was like: Do you guys know that our meeting starts at 8.30?

She is hinting to me because I am ALWAYS late.

For a brief moment , I was offended.

The first thought that stroked me is: Who are you to tell me this? You are just a nurse. The doctors haven't even complained yet. And I can justify my lateness, I was passing up my assignment.

I was quick to realize my mistake.

EGO.

That's the word. Everyone is smart and clever at certain things. I should not judge. And I am not cleverer than anyone in any senses at all.

Sorry.

But for some reasons, she dislikes me

For instance,she offered everyone a biscuit except me, RIGHT IN MY FACE. Oh well, in a positive note, I am saving my calories though.

She will have 'the look' when talking to me as always.What is her problem?

Females are complicated. They dis you for unknown reasons sometimes. And I am too lazy to even care a bit. She will be regretting because I am actually quite LOVABLE. HA-HA.

Anyway.

*side tracked*

I should be sentimental in conjunction to my head line, shouldn't I?

Well....

Afterall...

22 is a nice figure.

I am enjoying every second of it.













I am not even settling down yet, yet TO TRY.

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